#dude#when jaime ran to joffrey’s side#for the first time in the course of the show i felt like i was actually aware of the fact that#jaime is a father#jaime has children#jaime has three children#jaime is joffrey’s father and he’s watching him die and he’s trying to save him and cersei won’t let him#this moment when jaime runs to joffrey’s side before anyone else can reach him#just reminded me of when cersei talked about how nobody could keep jaime out of her chambers when she was in labor#how he was at her bedside for every minute while she gave birth to their children#and i mean wow joffrey was a terrible evil sadistic little shit#and cersei and jaime are certainly fucked up and twisted#but my heart broke for them right there#they’re parents#and they’re watching their child die and they can’t do anything to help him (via)
Eh, I believe that Jaime does genuinely love his children when it gets down to it, and yes even Joffrey. But I think he only really thinks about them as a part of him when it’s life or death. Other than that I think he thinks of them purely as Cersei’s children. They are all Cersei, she bore them and raised them by herself. They are true Lannisters and were created purely from her and her twin - to her, her and Jaime are one, so she basically created those children just from herself. She only loves them, she only loves herself.
She’s not pushing Jaime away because of propriety, but because Joffrey is hers. Jaime has done next to nothing for him, and definitely has not been a parent. Cersei believes she is the only one who has claim to Joffrey, and she’s very clearly the only one who holds any sort of true love for him. Jaime loves him as his blood, his son, but he doesn’t actually know Joffrey well enough to properly love him. Even before Cersei pushes him away there is a certain awkwardness when he touches Joffrey, he never held him as a babe and the contact is visibly awkward and unsure.
I think she loves Jamie to the degree that she likes that she is so loved by him and worshipped by him. He is her brother, her twin and that means a lot, but when he comes back a broken man she doesn’t recognize any of the strength in him that she feels in herself. They’ve grown apart. She realizes they are not the same person despite sharing so much with him - children, parents, dna, pride, sexual discovery, love. They are two separate entities and when she realizes that she pulls away from him and loves him only in longing for the past, and all that she has lost. I think there’s a very obvious symbol of them fucking for the last time in front of their first son’s dead body, the first tangible product of their love.